| Well, its been 2 months and 10 days ever since the last time I wrote anything. I still cant believe at times that i am back for good here in Malaysia. It sometimes just seems as if it was just yesterday i was in Adelaide. Well, I have just climbed out of the world I locked myself in for nearly one and a half months. Everything is so different back here. I felt like a newcomer even in the church that i have attended for 4 years of my Christian life. It kinda sucks when you are and old timer, but yet you feel like a newbie bu tthen again , treated like and old timer. Well, got over that already, the solution, i just got my butt out and started moving on. No point waiting for people to help usher you back into the life of the church again.
Anyway, before i continue, I just want to thank God for everything He has blessed me with in Adelaide. The whole Adelaide expereince was just totally the greatest blessing that I have ever recieved from God. Going through life in a different environment, through all the challenges with Him. I just thank Him for all the friendships that He has blessed me with and all the challenges that He has got me through. Oh and thank God for Paradise church as well man. It was just an awesome experience. I had the time of my life there. I have grown so much in Him in Adelaide, and learned so much about life itself. Indeed God has been good.Thank God for all the pastors in paradise and all the leaders there as well. You guys are just awesome man. Its really sad that I my time is up in Adelaide. sighs... But oh well, God has better plans for me back in Malaysia, whatever they are, they are gonna be good, though i still dont really have the idea of why He called me back.
Month 1....
Well, i was totally drowned in a minor depression for the first whole month coming back to Malaysia. Was complaning about everything back here. Everyday was a cry of complain to God. I bet He must have wore earplugs by now. heh.. nah.. God doesnt wear anything to block out His ears. He loves listening to His children even though we sometimes go overboard. Hmm.. what else did i do, oh yea.. stayed home most of the time, just didnt bother calling many people out and just sulk and complain and dream of my days in adelaide all day long. Yea, i did go to church and cell and everything, but it was just so different then. Just moved to a new cell, Young adult cell. Man... i tot i was attending a beyond 65 cell group man. It was just so.... i dont know how to describe. Everyone was just so, un-youthful!. as if they got sapped dry of all their energy. Went back to church, Young Adult service, i would've expected the atmosphere to change ever since i left, but, oh well, i felt like i was in beyond 65 again. This just went on lah.. for the one whole month.
Month 2 and beyond....
Things got better after i decided to crawl out of my hole. You know, actually during those weeks that i have been back, God has already been speaking to me, just that i chose to ignore Him, justifying that it was just too hard to me to step out and move on. I have already ascended into another level in Him, where i need to step out in faith in the things that He has been preparing me for over here. Its really really hard i would admit, but nothing is impossible with God, especially if He has given His word, that word of His would make the impossible possible! Well, it is written in the bible that Heaven and earth will pass away, but His word will remain forever. Which means that, His word, is even more real than what we can see or feel around us!!! more real than our situation or circumstance!!! That word brings life when it is spoken!!!
Well, to cut things short, things are much better now, i am comfortable with my cell, even starting lepak activities right now in cell, wanna bring some life into them.. he he... cant stand the kayu-ness man. Lepak is my ministry man.. no doubt. Well, whatever that is to come, i pray God that Your will be done in my life. Well, God has already promised to build my life. And my life He will build. For His glory and for His purposes. :)
Well, i have actually heaps to share. but i just dont have the full inspiration now. till the next time.. ciao |
